Love and the Outcome...

It's nearly 4AM and under 30 degrees outside. I was laying in my warm, comfortable bed when it got laid on my heart to blog about a song that has been on my mind. And yes, I would have loved to have stayed in bed but, when the Lord tells you to blog about a song...you blog about a song...and don't question who it's for. Ironically, the song and the entire blog for the morning is about trusting God...because he does know what he's doing. It is my hope that this blog finds someone, someday in the right moment. It's for the person who is finding it harder to trust God's judgment, and even harder to find the patience to wait on the outcome. HE does know what he's doing... and if we can stick it out, we will see that there's a reason for all of the hurt, all of the disappointments, and all of the other stuff we had to endure to get to the light at the end of the seemingly never-ending tunnel.

The song is called He is With Us by Love and the Outcome.

Forgive my quick copy-and-paste job, but here are the lyrics (taken from lyrics.com)

Remember when your hope is lost and faith is shaken
Remember when you wonder if you're gonna make it
There's a hand stretched out through your deepest doubt
We can't pretend to see the ending or what's coming up ahead
To know the story of tomorrow
But we can stay close to the One who knows

We can trust our God
He knows what He's doing
Though it might hurt now
We won't be ruined
It might seem there's an ocean in between
But He's holding on to you and me
And He's never gonna leave, no
He is with us, He is with us
Always, always
He is with us, He is with us
Always

We believe there is purpose, there is meaning in everything
We surrender to His leading
He wants nothing more than to have us close

We can trust our God
He knows what He's doing
Though it might hurt now
We won't be ruined
It might seem there's an ocean in between
But He's holding on to you and me
And He's never gonna leave, no
He is with us, He is with us
Always, always
He is with us, He is with us
Always

Our faith is sealed
Our hope is real
Come what may
We're not afraid
Our faith is sealed
Our hope is real
Come what may
We're not afraid
We're not afraid

We can trust our God
Always, always
We can trust our God
Always, always

We can trust our God
He knows what He's doing
Though it might hurt now
We won't be ruined
It might seem there's an ocean in between
But He's holding on to you and me
And He's never gonna leave, no
He is with us, He is with us
Always, always
He is with us, He is with us
Always, always
He is with us, He is with us
Always, always
He is with us, He is with us
Always
Our God is with us


***Now that you've read the lyrics... go YouTube the song. Better yet, buy it from ITUNES or wherever people get their music from these days. Seriously a very powerful song. Now, I don't cry like a normal person--I just get overcome with a great sadness that would be equivalent to how a person feels when they cry, or so I would think. Anyway... this song gets me every time. I feel like this song was written for me. Of course, I'm sure everyone has that one song they feel like that towards but seriously... this song has really spoke to me and made me keep the faith and remember that I need to quit questioning God's plan for me. I imagine wherever I end up, there's going to be a purpose for this entire situation.


Let's be honest, infertility really sucks. I truly hope someday my story will be used as an encouragement to others...if only one person. As much as I want God to use me as an example, I have to be selfish and hope that my story has a happy ending.

As a side note, I've noticed my favorite blogs I read all have the same thing in common--PICTURES. I have noticed even blogs from people with a seemingly dull life have awesome blogs because of the pictures on there. Which has led me to the conclusion that I probably have an extremely lame blog due to lack of pictures. I sure hope whoever decides to read my blog is more of a reader instead of a picture-person. But let's face it, people are picture people. Anyone who has me on Facebook knows I have tons of pictures to share...however, with this story--I have chosen to remain anonymous as much as possible. I do not share this blog with friends and family (not presently, anyway). People who read my blog are ones who stumble upon it by chance. One day, when I feel like it needs to be shared publicly, I'll be more open about pictures and sharing on social networks. For now, it is just between me and...well, technically everyone with internet. Lucky for me, I have a lame blog without pictures so there hasn't been too much attention to it.

Especially this blog posting...who is going to stumble upon this blog and actually read this long of a posting WITHOUT any pictures added?

Well, I was just being obedient and blogging about this--I'm not sure who it is for...or when it's for. For all I know it could be discovered in 10 years by someone right at the right moment. I didn't want to wait until morning.

I'll end this extremely long blog with a reminder to trust God, especially in the tough times. Forget doctors or what other people tell us. Don't think your life is over because things don't go your way. It's not up to us in how our life turns out. God's plans are much bigger than anything we could possibly dream of. So, keep the faith...trust God. It hurts now, but it'll be worth it in the end. :-)

xoxo